Oh, is this blog dead?

I know I'm not good at updating here. I just don't feel like it. Or, I want to sometimes but I don't know it just feels like I don't want to spend time on it. There are tons of things I want to post about but eyhehe LAZY. I laso want to do a bunch of other things and right now I feel happier not worrying about my blog. Because that's what I do at times. I worry that I don't have anything to post etc. I might try and find a better balance later on :)

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MURDEROTIC

Happy birthday to me!

I earned this badge in nike+ running because I ran today. Yaaay!

yesss, this is going to be a good movie year!

New zombie hands tote bag!

I got this amazing bag the other day from http://www.itsalivedesigns.com/ . Thank you so much! It's really thick and far from as thin as the other two I have! This is my new shopping and grocery bag. I LOVE IT!

Boots are from poplin, the brand is Vegetarian Shoes. My cardigan is an old one from Carlings ^-^

Peter LeMarc

Jag "Jag gillar dig också"
Peter "Det behöver du inte säga haha"
Jag" MEN JAG GÖR DE, jag vill ta bild med dig!"

I met the Swedish artist Peter LeMarc today. My dad is a huge fan. His music brings me alot of joy only because my dad likes his music. My little sister used to sing his songs when she was little, although she got many of the words wrong haha.





And my favourite, also my little sisters favourite song when she could barely talk hahaha It's sad that the only one you can find on youtube is this one, it's not the best quality :/

morning and exercise goals

I had breakfast on the balcony today! The spring sun was hot and bright! My legs are super shiny because I had just rubbed them with sunblock :D I had overnight oats with bluberries and banana! YUM! Also a cup of almond milk.

I also did some chill exercising today. Mostly headstand and bridge. Also some jumping around and hula hooping. It was fun! I also thought I could share some of my goals this year when it comes to my "healthy living".

I just realized that I'm getting surgery done in the beginning of September and I just wrote RUN A 20K! ok. I CAN DO THIS! 

Do you have any fun goals that you like to share?

winged eyeliner and almond milk.

OK!!! HOLD TIGHT TO YOUR CHAIR BECAUSE..... This is NOT a work makeup! OHgodhgoshgdoshgodshgdo AHMAGAAAAADDDD. No. I haven't worn my dark smokey eye in some time now and I wore it to a dinner with my co-workers. I felt so weird in it that I didn't really want to show myself HAHAHA.

SO, today when I started to put on my makeup I thought OH, I did that liner that I really liked on me (first time I ever thought liner looked good on me). So yes, I'm wearing eyeliner today, I think it looks good, I like AND I fell comfortable in it! I do have A LOT of makeup on me. It looks more irl than in these cam pictures. But still. This feels so nice :D

Today I've used the eyeshadows (from mac): vanilla, on the lid. Wedge in the crease and then brown todn in the crease too and beauty marked under my eyes. The liner I've used is fluidline, blacktrack, I used that one for my brows too.

I would however like to fix my hair a bit hahahaha. it's like a a crows nest from hell. BUt mjeh now when I called it a crows nest from hell I started to like it 9000000000 times more :D

I like my Spock cup. Today it contains almond milk. YUM! I had breakfast in the balcony today. It was nice. I didn't drink a green smoothie yesterday because I forgot and remembered after I had pizza and candy and then, no I was to full. I will have TWO today. YAY!

the never ending ab shots!

I've been bloated and swollen for days now. I actually thought that my body had changed and looked like that. Today it was all gone and I could see progress from my exercising! YAY!
The past 6 days I've ran 27KM!! That' about 16.8miles! I pushed trough a 10k run today. It was hard but felt great AND TODAY IS CANDY DAY!!!
Roberto is getting my fav candies when he gets off work! YAY!!!! We'll probably eat tacos too, or pizza!!! Or maybe we eat pizza tomorrow!

I also want to get back to blogging I want to WANT TO blog more. I don't know but I guess this is because I feel that my hair is crap and I've felt really uncomfortable beeing swollen. I know it's silly talk but if you've had a swollen body you know what I'm talking about. It just feels very uncomfortable and you feel really weird! It's not nice. Ugh look at mea, talking about this as if it's a problem XD HAHA No that's not how I see it but I think that's why I've not had the urge to blog and post outfit photos XD Okay. stop babbling now.

Tomorrow I'll go to the gym I think, WORK THOSE MUSCLES!!! I'll work on my arms and back again. Those are the muscles that I never really work on. Let's do this! Work on those guns :D

UPDATE:
Remember when I talked about how my boyfriend and I seem to have this weird pizza connection? Well I said this morning (because I had bought so many tomatoes) that we had to eat tacos today. I just got a text "Jag ska ha pizza idag, skaru ha eller?", he said he was going to get pizza today and asked if I wanted some too. HAHA oh my it's so much fun, so yeh WE'RE GETTING PIZZA TODAY!!!!

Yummy overnight oats!

My breakfast today. YUM! Overnight oats. I've recently started eating it. The first time I used almond milk but today I used soy milk. Both because it was cheaper and the almond milk avalible at the store is sweetened with sugar. I think almond milk tastes a lot better if you drink it but using soy milk to overnight oats didn't do much difference to the taste at all. I have a lot of cinnamon and cardamom in them though!

I got the recipe from http://melanie-is-healthy.tumblr.com/.

For you who don't meassure in cups! 1/2 cup is about 1.2dl , 1 cup 2.4dl! 

Of course you can add other things too! Nuts, seeds, almond milk, more cinnamon. You can add so much fun stuff to change it up every day! 

I love running!

I've started this new thing where I run while listening to Harry Potter. At first it slowed me down, but as you can see below, I beat my old records yesterday (I know I have one fast 5k but that one was missmeasured somehow). After 4 days of rest I went out for a 10k run. It was so much fun and relaxing!

My pants are super dirty after the high range, bootcamp group pass I attented a few days ago. HAHA I haven't come to wash them yet XD I think my but was the dirtiest too. Must have looked as if I had pooped my pants, or sat in poop for people whp I ran past XD

After my run my legs hurt again, in a good way of course. I'm glad I rested those 4 days! It showed me even more how much I need to rest my body sometimes and how much progress only two workouts can make! After my double pass my legs hurt so much for 3 days! I know that's not good, don't worry! But WOW did it make my legs stronger! My running muscles (I don't know what they're called haha but you use them a lot while running) are so hard right now even when I don't flex haha. I feel so much stronger! 

I'm so proud over these results! I want to improve even more! My next goal will be a 15k! I will now head for the gym to do some weights. Work on my muscles :D Okay, no more sitting around here right now. I need to pack my gym bag and head to the gym. It's almost 9 am! :D

In The Limelight

I'm in love with this nailpolish! It is a bit more intense green irl but (the top picture shows the colour pretty well). HAHA My hands were so red I had to remove a bit more colour from the photos than I really wanted. I usually don't like nailpolishes this much! I just put this one on during lunch yesterday because I thought it might look nice. I never thought I'd fall in love with it. I'll def buy this next time I work! It's the nailpolish called "in the limelight" from the gamour daze collection! SO PRITTIIIIIIII!

PARTY GIRL!

Some fanta lemon, chocolate, cookies and a lollipop. I already had, two glas of fanta lemon, one lollipop, a four cookies, a pizza and some candies! I actually finished my pizza before Roberto!!! This is going to the history book (our history book) hahaha. I never finish a meal first because I eat so slow and really enjoy my food. I must have been super hungry. I didn't even feel that full after I finished it. Good I had candy and cookies!

I love the nailpolish I have on today. I'm a bit mad, I won a nailpolish at work (we had some competition at the counter) and I chose a pretty boring one that I liked or love, it's really nice too, but this one is pale min green SO PRETTY I LOVE IT SO MUCH! Now I wish I would have chosen this one. dhgkjdhkjghdjks I have to buy it!!! I'll show it tomorrow. The cam pictures looked so crappy in colour X)

BYEBYE BOOBIES!

I had my second consultation at the clinic today! If you're asking yourself What, what is this what did I miss, please read these posts: http://www.murderotic.com/2013/03/im-proud-of-myself.html and http://www.murderotic.com/2013/03/lets-be-clear.html.

I've got the question to write about how my consultation went, I decided to wait until today after I had my second one!

The first counsultation:

I visited the clinic with my mother and talked to a nurse. She explained everything I needed to know about the surgery, before after and during. She also looked at my breasts to see how they looked, if the were saggy or not, the size etc. She asked why I wanted to get the surgery done, she also explained that many comes in to get breast inplants to get them to look like mine and made sure I was aware of that, that they looked nice. Haha. Nice compliment :) We also talked about the price. We booked my second appointment with the surgeon.

The second consultation:

Roberto came with me this time. I'm so happy that I didn't go to any of the consultations alone. It felt really good having someone close there with me.

The surgeon also asked why I wanted to get it done, went over the risks with me again, showed how the surgery is done. Told me a lot about the scarring and what they would do if there were any complications. He alos looked at my breasts, of course, to see how to go about it and to get a hint of how much we're going to remove later. 

It felt really good after talking to the surgeon. Both Roberto and I felt very good walking out from there. With all the extra information about everything. 

An hour or so later I called the bookings and got my appointment booked. I have time for surgery in 142 days. I'm so excited and nervous!!! 

If you have any questions, please ask below and I'll add them under this post :) 

Groceries and today's green smoothie!

I don't have the exact recepie because I just put stuff in the mixer when I make my smoothies now. But it was something like:

• 1 banana
• 1 small lemon
• 1 satsuma
• 2 carrots with the tops (not sure what they're called)
• about 1 cup water, maybe a bit more
• about 1 cup or maybe a bit more spinach 

It was refreshing and yummy. I have lemon in most of my smoothies. I LOVE LEMON!

I don't really have that much money at the moment (save up, save up, save up) but I took some from my savings. I mean, you need to get fresh fruits and veggies!!! Both for my smoothies and snacking. I'm not going to give that up just because I'm saving a lot of money at the moment.

Wednesday Date.

Yesterday Roberto and I want on an awesome date! We've been waiting forever for something good to the movies!

First we went candy shopping. My fav candy store was closed (and the guy still had the lights on reading a magaizine), that made me super pissed. We walked to a second one, it sucked. We walked to a third, it sucked but it didn't suck as much as the second one. We got some candy and I got in a better mood (even though they didn't have one of the candies I wanted).

We walked to Max and ordered Dinner. All the grumpyness was gone BUT I was super tired. Roberto waved his hand before my eyes because my brain died hahahaha.

After a while I faught to get up from the chair. Remember, my legs are dead sore. We walked to the movies and got our tickets for the next movie that we're going to see on my birthday (Iron man 3), I also got one of those more expensive 3d glasses. You now have to buy the before free ones for 15 sek. I felt that I could pay 79sek for a better pair ^-^ Specially for my birthday!!! :D

This is me, supre tired with burning legs after the movies. It was great. I want to watch it again. I think you can show me anything sci-fi and I'm sold. The volume was waaaay to high, even Roberto complained. But we sat in a very bad place (not for watching the movie but to go out and talk to the staff) + I couldn't get up with my legs, not quickly. So we didn't go and say anything about the volume, I just blocked my ears from time to time.

I can't wait to go to the movies again! I love going to the movies :D It's one of my fav things to do!

The soreness from hell!

Two days ago (Tuesday) I went to the gym. I had a booked a kettlebell/dumbell group pass. It was hard work and a lot of fun! I pushed myself as much as I felt that I could! After the pass the instrutor said that someone had booked both the kettlebells and the TMI high range (TMI is Tid Med Instruktör = Time With Instructor)  afterwards, laughed and said "are you up for that now?". But she didn't come to the kettlebells. I was lying flat on the floor at this point and another girl asked about the high range pass. It was a pass outdoors in a small group with two instructors, bootcamp style. 

I was exhausted but still felt that I really wanted to go. BUT, I was dead so I called my mum and started walking home. After i hung up (still on my way home) I looked at the booking page to see if they had any spots left for the high range pass. They did, I booked it and I ran back to the gym. Yes, I ran! I ran to the gym the first time to because I was late haha. 

So. I ended up going to two passes, two hard ones, in one day. I was close to quitting in the begining of the second one but the instructor kept pushing me, without strss even though I fell behind. I was so proud that I catched up after the first part of the pass. It was a lot of jogging and I realized I'm really good at that! Even though my legs, arms and back are dead, I can still run pretty fast! Everyone was so supportive and happy towards one another to. I felt so at home! I wish they'll add something similar to their weekly schedual! 

Yesterday I could barely walk. My legs, arms and back hurt when I walk. I was already sore in my chest and amrs before these workouts haha. I can't get over that I can't get over that I'm till proud over what I accomplished. I'm very rarely proud over things I do. I think the last time I was even close to as proud as I am now is the time when I ran my first 10k!
Also, getting that high five from the instructor when I walked out the gym, that must have been the best high five ever!

I'm in on my second rest day today. I can't understand how people go working out with this kind of soreness or why they'd even want to. I feel that it's going to do me more harm than good. I might do some stretching today, maybe go for a walk if my legs gets better! 

No pants pizza party!

The celebrations continue! Since Roberto and I didn't have an actualy 3 years anniversary date (I got a bit sick the day we had planned it), we keep celebrating today. We ordered pizza, watched the end of Harry potter and order of the phoneix.

I'm a bit surprised that I ate the hole pizza, I always eat the whole pizza, but this time without struggle and I did not get stuffed! I don't know why I'm surprised, I've been exercising alot. Feels good, I've a lot of room for chocolate and chips!

I was also planning to go to the gym this morning. But during the night my phone shut down and I woke up a bit later than I had planned. It didn't really matter, I'm so soar today I can't barely walk! I did Jillian Michaels 6 pack in 6 weeks yesterday. I didn't think at was to much of a struggle + I didn't have shoes on so many of the exercises was hard do to 100%. My body needed this day off, GOOD WORK YESTERDAY! If I'm not as sore tomorrow I'll head to the gym or do the 6 pack workout ^-^

Okay, enough blogging. I want to cuddle in the sofa, eating chocolate and watch Harry Potter and the half blood prince with my lovely boyfriend!

Lookday at work and I'm a happy girl today!

Wanties from Nike

I spent some time on Nikes website yesterdayand found a bunch of stuff that I want. Specially the jacket, grey sweat shorts, black silky long tights, the two black shorts and the long sleeved grey top.

I'm going to start on a closet with only exercising gear!!!

Mew and I, working out!

Mew likes to work out with me on my mat! He's all flexible and I'm a sack of potatoes :D haha

Mhmhmmm, breakfast. I LOVE BREAKFAST. Fav part of the day. I can't wait for tomorrow's breakfast!!!
Today I had, half an apple raw and the other half I cut up, put cinnamon on and microwaved for about 3 minutes and put it in my boal of fermented milk, theww sandwishes and a cup of tea.

New fav Wrap!

1.  Whole wheat tortillia bread with sliced and fried quorn filét.
2.  Add vegetables. I used cucumber and tomatoes.
3.  Home made dressing. I've used 1.5dl creme fraiche, 1 cleft of pressed onion, a tiny bit of salt and a tiny bit of Italian herbes.
4. Add sallad. I used a pre mix of sallads, not sure which ones exactly.
   
   AND YOU'RE DONE! Super easy! 

Hmmm lite hjälp?

Jag mailade en mja någon sorts expert innom bröstförminskning i ett forum. Frågade om det fanns någon chans att gå via landstinget. Jag är fortfarande osäker på om jag vill få det finansierat. Jag vill inte ta chansen från någon som inte har råd. Jag har ju råd men det blir ett himla sparande. IAF jag undrar om någon vet hur det ligger till när man vill få bidrag. Hur svårt det är. Lång väntetid. Hur mkt man får bestämma själv osv. Som jagförstått har man inte mycket att säga till om alls. Det gör mig orolig bådeför dett är inte enbart en operation för jag ska slippa värk osv. Sen så pga saker som vi planerat ska hända innom en snar framtid vill jag inte göra operation efter januari 2014. Hmmm. Mja här är ia svaret jag fick när jag frågade om det fanns ngn chans till bidrag

"Hej!

Du har ju ett BMI på ca ** nära undre gränsen för vad som accepteras både inom landstinget och på en privatklinik. Om du har detta BMI och samtidigt bröst på 700 ml eller mer tycker jag att brösten kan anses vara oproportionellt stora. Normalt ligger dock landstingsgränsen på 800 ml - och visst utförs bröstförminskningar i landstingsregi, så det är värt att söka och be om remiss.

Med vänlig hälsning

Karl Bremer"


Ska googla runt massa mer när jag kommer hem men tänkte att någon kanske vet något :))))

Depeche Mode DELTA MACHINE, my favourites.

3 years and still going!

Today is OUR day! We're going to work and eat tacos haha. 

So much have changed since I first met this man. Wow. He's changed so much just the past year, it's amazing, he is amazing. I fall more in love with him every day. I can't believe the luck I've had to meet Roberto, my best friend in the whoooooole universe!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Mew!

Today is Mews BIRTHDAY! HIPP HIPP HURRAAAAAA! So far he has spent the day cuddleing with me, eating and sleeping. Oh Mew and Damien also joined Instagram yesterday. They're called MewDamien. http://web.stagram.com/n/mewdamien/. I guess if he wishes for anything is for you to follow him and Damien. I'm fachinated that our cats can take pictures and post them on instagram COOOOOL... hehehehehe.